ok today is my first day, i just found this page when looking for sites on ana. it was not wat i was looking for but after seening what this site is about, it felf right to join... i have wanted to put myself out there, but places like myspace & youtube r just too well... everyone can see ur business. i guess thats a part of the idea but i just feels more comfy here. (what im trying to say is i u dont have to let ppl know who u are, but u can let ppl in)

anyways the reason i was looking for site on ana is, i was anorexic. from around the ages 14 to 18 it was real tuff, after i turned 18 i felt like i had a hold on it, i was healthy again. but i was so stupid to believe that i was better. the anorexia was just hiding i think. i am still healhty but i can feel it creeping up on me. it has always done that but this time im letting it. 

in the past few years i was just snap myself out of it and tell myself to stop being to stupid but this time its different, i feel a rush, my heart rate goes up and i feel dizzy, like i would if i had a crush on someone... im about to turn 22 so its been a while from when i was really sick from anorexia but now i am always thinking about food & not eating. im always thinking about looseing weight. i feel good and im the skinnest ive been in ages but then i dont feel like its enough, i want to loose more!

so here it gose. to today is the first day of weight lose, from this day on im keeping track of progress with writing in my journal and with pictures too... so please watch how i do and feel free to comment, good or bad, i need to here it all

much love skyla
  

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